thank you

I just want to say thank you. Thank you for pushing me away. Without that, I would have never fallen for him. That's not to say I don't think about you once in a while. How I wish to know how you're doing. But we're better off this way.

Thank you for letting me find love.

III

What do you do when you don't know what to do?

How about when you're so confused, you don't know whether to step up and say something, or let it pass?

When you're doing your best to make sure things are going smoothly and all they seem to be doing is fucking up. When you're so excited for the future, but the person on the opposite end is frustrated. You want everything to be perfect, and here it is, crumbling at your feet. The words lessen and the silence grows. And you don't know what to do. 2 days...that's all that's left between here and there. But you're not even sure if there is where he wants you to be.

That's what happens when the silence grows. Silence is the birthmother of confusion. The less you know, the more you wonder.

Some say you should just leave it alone. It will all work out. Everything will be fine. But you want to scream at them, at him, and tell them it's not fine. Because if it were, you wouldn't be in this mess.

You know you're right...and you know you should just let it go.

Just let it go.